In sickness and in health....

Feeling helpless while someone you love is sick and in pain is a horrible feeling, especially being the control freak that I am. I have prayed, others have prayed and we continue to. I watch the man that I love deal with health issues for months now. It seems like he takes 1 step forward and 2 back. It's back and forth to the Dr's and hospitals for tests and procedures. There are so many teams of Dr's that it's so hard to keep them all straight. Missed work, missed visits with kids, cancelled plans, no energy, lost weight, blood work, tests and meds. I have to be strong because this isn't about me. This is about a vow I made to my best friend. In sickness and health. I just wish I knew what the "plan" was because I have no idea. Is it to make us stronger? There has to be a reason we are going through this. I just wish I knew what it was.