I started my blog as a way to express myself without being judged. Wow was I kidding myself so basically I'm damned for what I say and bummed for not saying what I want. I'm at the point now where if you read my blog and don't like something I have to say, that's your problem not mine. I'm so tired of people thinking I should be a certain way and if I don't conform by my actions or words then I am some kind of evil monster. So from now on, if you don't like it, fuck you. You don't have to read it. Nobody is forcing you and if you read it to find something to talk about because you don't have a life of your own, you are pathetic. I know I am a good person with a good heart. I've been told that I come across a bit strong at times, well tuff shit. It's who I am and if I'm not hurting anyone or myself, why should it matter. It kinda goes back to a few blogs ago when I talked about double standards. I have a dear friend who is a kind hearted, loving, fun, vivacious woman. She is very free spirited and goes with the flow. Makes friends very easily and loves to have fun. Well I have me some of my best memories with her and it's funny because as great as we get along, there are quite a few ways we are different. She goes with the flow, I like control and to know what's going on. I'm always the caretaker and responsible person, she's childlike and at times out of control. So, my point is, that's how she's know and that's how I'm known. It's totally acceptable for her to go out and get wasted and be the hit of the party and somehow find her way home. Me on the other hand! Woohoo! If I did anything like that, man would there be talk! Why is it ok for some and not others? People would say "That's Laura" or "That's how she is" and nobody would think anything more of it. If it was me, oh he'll no! There would be gossip and it would be a huge scandal! Shit, I've already been called a Hollywood diva! I take that as a compliment! I think that makes me sound like I care about my appearance. I was once told that I always dress appropriately for the occasion. Since when is that a bad thing? I actually like to look nice. I don't do it to impress anyone but I do it for me!
So to all you negative Nellies, I say get a hobby because my life really isn't interesting enough for you to care that much about. Oh and I've learned something too. I don't give a rats ass what you think about me! I have better things to do than worry if someone likes me or what they think of me. Shit! I live in paradise, have a wonderful husband that loves me and is my best friend, beautiful kids (and grandbaby)who make me smile just by thinking about them. Yep, I am blessed!